“I Have No F**king Idea What I’m Doing… And That’s Okay.”
Man.
I can’t even count how many times I’ve had to repeat that mantra so that I don’t lose my shit and punch the closest pedestrian. I’m a black female; the odds were stacked against me the moment I came screaming into the world. And now that I’m in my 20s, life seems to be having a field day with making me struggle as much as possible.
But as much as I wanna blame the Universe for my shortcomings, I know that some of my struggles are entirely my fault. I got into the school of my dreams and into a major I was really interested in, only to party my first year of college away. After a failed attempt at summer classes, I impulsively moved from home and into an apartment I could barely afford. I took courses at a community college (yep, failed those with flying colors as well) and decided to just say fuck it and party some more (I know, I basically added gasoline to the flaming bag of shit by doing that, we Gemini’s tend to be quite a puzzle). I’ve made stupid mistakes, probably just about as many as any other 20 something; probably just about as many as you.
You’re more than likely reading this because like me, you are a struggling 20 something just trying to get through these miserable magical years. Or, you’re bored and the painfully true title caught your eye. Either way, welcome. I’m Tay, a 22 year old with so much bullshit piled up I’m starting to smell it. I started this blog to connect with others who may be dealing with the same problems as me and need someone to relate, somewhere to vent, and some pro tips to survive. I want you to drill a few things into your head: You’re not a fuck up, you’re not a failure, and you’re definitely not alone.
This blog will grow with me along the way, and together we will create the ultimate guide to the “What the fuck am I doing?” question. So, grab some snacks, roll a fat one, and let’s sort this shit out together.
-TAY SHAREE
© 2018 By Taylor Williams.
Erykah Badu
-“Now keep in mind I’m an artist and I’m sensitive about my shit. So y’all be nice about it, alright?”
Twenty Something Struggles 
I hope I can encourage you some way. Stop worrying about what didn’t go right in your life. Find a passion that you can eventually build and make it work for you. I want to point out everything you did that was good. You went to school pursued higher education twice. You got your own placed. Im 22 years old and a gemini and think what happens is we actually really don’t know what we want in life. I went to college for a year and I did it following a social norm but really i hate school. I’d rather be doing things that advance me as a person. So if school isn’t for you don’t go. That doesn’t stop the hustle because most likely you’ll be working a job you don’t like anyways. Why bother? I understand finances is a thing but like I said look at the brighter. I’m not saying that just to say (*me forceably forcing your head into the sun) but seriously take time to acknowledge everything you did right. Don’t think about anything too long. let it go, live life, meet new people and keep it moving. Read inspirational text, join groups who like the same stuff you do. It’s not over, it’s just the beginning. In a couple of years when you look back. You’re gonna be so happy! 🙂
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Thank you so much ❤️❤️ Definitely needed to hear that !
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